Wowwwww I completely forgot about LJ until 5 minutes ago! Haha. I don't even know if anyone updates theirs regularly or if I will, but I wanted to have something here besides that last entry from September. My life has changed immensely. And I am extremely happy at the moment, Chris makes me smile every day and I love him so much. I can't wait til we live in the same city, which will hopefully be sometime soon. Other than that, I'm trying to read more. I can't WAIT for Harry Potter to come out, and the new Pottermore site. I'm looking for a new job. I want to move out of SD. I have a Disneyland pass again. I love my family. I love Chris. And I've recently found that my true circle of friends is much smaller than I ever thought, but those I do have I am grateful for and I love them. Lakers lost, but so did Miami ;) Anddddd that's my life right now I guess!

Remember with any gift, Cancer likes the container as much as what is inside!


ohhhh how true, astrology.com! haha.

backtrack: i'm going to give Ron Artest and Mrs. Lamar Odom my full support. Ron is part of my favorite team now, and Lamar is still part of my team, so I'm good now. I'll always defend my Lakers to the ends of the earth, and ron is an amazing player. So I'm done whining now :) haha.

also, it's very cold in the museum today, and i'm not wearing long sleeves. i don't like it.

haven't been good about writing my dreams down lately, i guess i got lazy haha. so the other night, i dreamed that i was eating a piece of pizza and joey was standing next to me. i took a piece of pepperoni off the pizza, the last one, and ate it while he was looking at me haha. all of a sudden he attacked me! he lunged and started biting me because i ate the pepperoni. it was kind of scary. two nights ago i dreamed that i was somewhere, talking to kobe's wife/a girl (i don't know if i was aware in the dream if she was his wife, or if it kept changing like dreams do), and then kobe appeared in front of me and i got soooo excited and freaked out! i kept saying omg omg its really him, its kobe, etc. i wanted to talk to him and get a picture or something, but i was too shy. i was petrified actually! vanessa/girl kept telling me to go for it, to just ask. he was wearing a suit and giant bling diamond studs in his ears. i woke up so disappointed that i couldnt even talk to him in my dream! but it was the first time that kobes been in my dream, besides me watching games, so that was cool. another night, i dreamed that I was watching a Lakers-Magic finals game and that the Lakers won 368-49!!! even in my dream, i thought that it was insane. a few weeks ago, i dreamed that I made out with Jordan Farmar (!) while he still had fluffy hair, and was wearing his yellow Lakers jersey. awesomeee. last night i don't really remember except that Ive been have anxious dreams lately with supernatural bends, dark, spiders, hiding, etc. alo been dreaming about being at work a lot. haha. anyway, there are the dream updates i can remember.

perhaps because i was thinking about my jesus clone dream while i fell asleep, i had some crazy dreams last night. i wish i had written them down when i woke up at 3 in the morning because they were so vivid, but i convinced myself that i would just remember them. that was the other weird thing! i woke up dreading that it was already 6 something, but it was only 3am! haha.

ok so. i pretty much remember only snippets of my dreams. sucks. first snippet: i'm in london, in a building across the street from Big Ben and Parliament, but geographically not correct. I was on an upper level, looking down and saw Prince Harry and Kate Middleton. I think he took his shirt off for some reason. I also dreamed about a terrorist attack in london, but can't recall if it was a continuation of this part and that i saw it through the window, or if it was a new and slightly related dream altogether. in any case, the sky was a dark inky color and a building that looked like St. Paul's Cathedreal or the U.S. Capitol building (the large white dome is the part i remember the most clearly) was in the middle of a large clearing. There was a huge gigantic explosion and subsequent fireball, and tons of fire all on the ground. Somehow it was obvious that it was a terrorist attack. I also recall an electronic board floating in the air kind of (like a popup thing on tv) that showed the US population at one billion people, the UK as well around one billion people. I can't remember which of those two countries was at the top, but it was them, and then around 3 or 4 countries grouped together and then the other country in bold at the bottom of the list. From the list, it was clear that only 9 countries still existed in the world. This, coupled with the population, made me think that I was in the future somehow. I can't describe it, but the whole scene had a very futuristic, war of the worlds feeling to it, along with general fear and darkness punctuated by heat and fire.

i had some other good dreams, or at least interesting dreams, which I can no longer recall. damn. i wish i wasn't so lazy last night! haha. i'm gonna start keeping a pad by my bed i think.

Yesterday was one of the very best days I've had in awhile! Not physically, because I have a cold and didn't feel well for most of the day. But because of the enormous pride and satisfaction I got out of being an American. I listened to Barack's swearing in as I drove to the market from work, and I sat in my car and listened to his entire speech so I wouldn't miss it in real time. It's incredible: every time he speaks, every time I see him or all the people supporting him, my throat tightens and I get tears in my eyes. While I've always been an emotional person, something about Obama gets me extra emotional, which surprises me in some ways. Throughout the campaign, I liked him very much, and wanted him to win, but didn't feel any superhuman attachment. I find his speeches so inspiring and articulate, and his politics well thought out. I love that he loves basketball, and i love that he loves comic books, spongebob and harry potter. I love almost everything about him. I love his candor in discussing his drug and alcohol use in college-smart move- and i love his voice! haha. His family is adorable too. I'm not big on the political front, but I paid much more attention this past election than I ever have before. I listened to the answers in the debates, instead of putting the candidates in red and blue boxes. I love Joe Biden and his wife as well; they're good looking and intelligent (she's a Dr. of something!), and I just think this government is going to be good. I'm very optomistic. While all the challenges won't be met in a day, or even in a year, I think Obama is the person most poised to meet them all. I'm glad that I've read encouraging reports that the American people don't expect all their problems to be met quickly. It's amazing how much the country has pulled together around him. Almost everyone you meet is excited! It's historical and all of that, and it's inspiring to have a black president, but it really seems to be more about him as a person than him as a race, which is the right thing. The patriotism and electricity in the air reminds me of the days and months after September 11th, but this time it's thanks to a positive reason. I watched the inaugeration coverage all day yesteday (i love doing that with special events anyway-olympics, oscars, election, etc). I baked a funfetti cake too, and made a heart with red m&ms and "obama" with blue m&ms! yummm. haha. it was fun and tasted good too. reminded me of when nanny and i would make cakes for every reason from the super bowl to 4th of july to harry potter's birthday. this has become a really rambly post i know, but i just had to write this all down somewhere! It's amazing to know that my children will read about this day in their history books. I almost want to have a kid before Obama's 8 years (yes, he's getting reelected!) are up so I can say that the 1st president of their lifetime was Barack Obama. He makes me smile in a way that I reserve for Kobe Bryant and the Lakers (USA Basketball included)- i grin from ear to ear. Everyone is saying they hope he'll live up to everything. I hope, but I also know. I've never felt this passionate about my president before. I have faith in him.

took the GRE, glad its over. i did fine on it, so whatev. now i'm going to concentrate on brushing up my spanish reading skills. i also want to learn to read italian and possibly german or french. i have a year til grad school (presumably) so i've got time. but yeah, that's my goal. anyone have suggestions on good language programs or books?

got starbucks today for the first time in a long time. i can't wait for the red holiday cups =)

i'm getting really excited for basketball season!! i read a new interview with phil jackson and kobe today. *smiling* also, my dad won me a kobe olympic jersey on ebay!! yayy.

i'm feeling less stressed lately, which is good. i hope this lasts for a little while, haha. DC in two weeks! can't wait.

I forgot one very important thing:


TOM BRADY IS OUT FOR THE SEASON!!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOO. he got hurt in the first quarter of the first game of the season and i am really really bummed. Patriots still won though, so that's ok. And now i can prove that I'm a Patriots fan and not just a Tom Brady fan. but still. i was crushed.

also, Chargers lost in the last two seconds of their game. Colts lost. Not a good start to the 2008 NFL season at allll.

good news? Kobe isn't getting surgery on his pinky. i don't know if that is stupid or not, but we'll see. hopefully it will be ok.

oh my god. i have found an obsession to almost rival my love of harry potter: the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyers. They are SO AMAZING!! I read the first two this week, and ordered the third on amazon (i think it's waiting for me at home actually, i just tracked it online!). anddd the last one in the series comes out at midnight on August 2nd. I love these books, and I'm just sad I didn't find them sooner (i like to be cutting edge in my book choices, haha). although this way, i got to read almost all of them at once. AND they're making a movie that comes out december 12th and it too looks amazing!! the casting was perfect; the teaser trailer is online and i swoon just watching it. Kristin Stewart plays Bella Swan (the main girl) and Robert Pattinson aka Cedric Diggory plays Edward Cullen (the main guy and vampire). and they could NOT be more perfect. all the minor characters too. they're chemistry looks intense. the whole cast and author and director is going to be at Comic Con so i'm finally going to go this year, since i'll already be in SD and all =) It's a testament to Stephenie Meyer's writing skills, and word choice and power of portraying emotion that i get so swoony and butterflies in my stomach just from reading. I'm completely in love with Edward Cullen, just like the girl working at Barnes and Noble warned me I would be. I really don't think I've ever been as in love with a fictional character in a book...Heathcliff is a bit too evil, Dirk Pitt is great but not quite fleshed out enough, and I love so many characters in harry potter, but i wouldn't say i'm in love with them. The author just seems so cool; she writes on her website, like JK Rowling does. Harry Potter will always be my number one, but these books are an extreeeemely close second. i haven't felt this way since i discovered harry potter, and even that was a bit more gradual. i didn't become crazy until the 4th one came out; i simply enjoyed them up until that point. anywayyyyy. read them! haha. suspenseful romance thriller young adult books that are incredibly well written with awesome characters.

i hate today. the lakers lost which pissed me off, and i'm stuck in the library racing the clock to finish my paper. and i'm reeeeally fucking hungry. i can barely concentrate. i forgot to bring snacks. and now i have a wicked in n out craving, i'm trying to finish quick so i can get there before they close at 1am.